I did not get to meet the Blur gentlemen in person during their tour to Jakarta.
Part of me yearned, certainly. I have waited for years, spending nights listening to Damon’s soothing voice, only to then missed seeing him in person and tell him just how much his works meant to me. There is also the competitive side of me, being angry at myself for not trying hard enough. For not having the knack to run away from work and jump over the hotel’s fence — fuck off, said common sense, you are not a high school kid anymore and you have responsibilities - to see a glimpse of Graham in real life. Graham, whose seductive quirk had visited my fantasy here and there.
Being constantly on Twitter for work purpose does not help; as you get to see parade of people taking pictures with Alex or telling the world how sweet and kind Dave was.
But there in Twitter I found this intriguing idea — that has been keeping me wide awake at night - that distance is what keeping things special. The fact that your muse, your favourite musician, is all the way across the continent, beyond the reach of your hand… This is what keeps it interesting. This is the one that gives you something to strive for, to hope for. To be grateful for when a stroke of luck happened.
I may have been trying to console myself. Something I would usually despise. The Aries in me, and the awareness of my strange tendency to be afraid of fully letting myself go, just would not accept the second best. Consolidation does not work for me.
But then I think things through again. Living the principle that you do not know why shit happens until you lived through it, then maybe it is the latter that I should keep my mind set on.
Do not aim for second best on your first try, true. But when things do not go as expected, it is time to console ourselves… And see if the second best was actually the best after all.
I did not get to meet Damon, let alone to fuck him in a restroom backstage like groupies of elder days (Oops. Sorry, but not really). But I got to share my love for him and his work, through what I do best — writing reviews, and getting them published.
